change

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musical...

for some reason,i feel "musical" tonight.hence dat two songs down there.... well,i cant find d lyric of d song dat keep playing in my head.its d song dat atro use to protome discovery channel...d "when u take d leap of faith,do u have a change of heart" song..so,i juz copy diz songs lyric and paste as substitute..why diz 2 songs u may ask..for no particular reason..or for reasons dat i cant really express here..its juz come to my mind..
some things juz happen for no reason at all.some things u juz cant explain.some things need no explaination.some things juz unexplainable.some things juz have to b explained.some things juz.juz..juz somethings....or nothing...

i'll stand by you by the pretneders.

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you...

catch a falling star(diz is not my blog.i heard diz song in tv ad when i was in aus last year)

Catch a falling star an' put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away!
Catch a falling star an' put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!

For love may come an' tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
Just in case you feel you wanna' hold her,
You'll have a pocketful of starlight!

Catch a falling star an' ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an' ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy day! )

For love may come and tap you on the shoulder,
Some star-less night!
An' just in case you feel you wanta' hold her,
You'll have a pocketful of starlight!

( . . . pocketful of starlight! ) [ hum in time ]

Catch a falling star an' ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an' ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day! ( Save it for a rainy . . . Save it for a rainy, rainy rainy day! )

For when your troubles startn' multiplyin',
An' they just might!
It's easy to forget them without tryin',
With just a pocketful of starlight!

Catch a falling star an' ( Catch a falling . . . ) put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away! ( Never let it fade away! )
Catch a falling star an' put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day!

song by perry como.lyric by lee pokris and paul vance.
*wonder how it sound..?well,what u waiting for,download it illegaly la....lagi mau tanya..hehe..

life...or something like it

tell me,what u want in life....what u look ,what u hv found,and what u hope to find...will u b satisfied once u got what u search for..or ull keep wanting for more...TO BE CONTINUED....

if i were a girl..

if i were a girl...
i will say things like "if i were a boy"
or i will wish i were a boy
coz its juz us human at our best
not satisfied with who we are
with what we got
with where we are
with who we are
so it doesnt really matter
if i were a boy
nor does it matter if i were a girl
its not about what we cant be
but who we are
coz grass always seem greener on the the other side of d fence
but always remember
its on d other side of dat fence
so live with ur grass
green or whatever color it is
coz dats all u got
unless u r ready to do sex change operation
haha....apalah aku ni....kronik dah ni......

12.02pm.23 feb 2009

kring kring...kring kring..kring kringggg
click...hello...
hello..boleh saya bercakap dengan cik ahmad taufik..
hello,ye saya...saya taufik..
cik taufik,saya ramli dari alam hidro.cik taufik available ke sekarang?
yes very much available cik..
cik taufik boleh standby tak UNTUK 7 march..
BOLEH SANGAT CIK RAMLI..BOLEH SANGAT...MEMANG ABSULUTELY,DEFINITELY,UNDOUBTLY,HARRILY,GLADLY BOLEH SANGAT SANGAT..
well,its not exactly like dat,but dat call finally come....and what a wait it has been...what a wait indeed....so,come diz march 7,ill no longer jobless..what a great feeling to get to work again,soon ..after not earning anything for quite a while...cik ramli,time kasih...and thanks for u for keeping my spirit up all diz while....

impulsive entry(does diz qualify as a blog)

when u have too much time,and got nothing to do,and a lil spark of idea..juz blog....like diz one..not dat i have any idea where diz is going,it juz me trying to make myself bz.and what a better way.yeah,read is one of my fav time-killer but i can owez read when theres no net connection.i havent learn yet how to first draft an entry sumwhere else then paste iot here..like in words or office..or wherever...if anyone like to b helpfull,please be my guess.and if anyone know how to set my space bar into "double spacing" mode all d time..is there such option?i suppose mr richest man in d world can think of dat and hv ask someone in his once-sccused-with-monopolising-d-computing-world to figure how to give us double-spacing-all-d-time.so instead of read,i write.knowing a few of u there enjoy reading diz also contribute to my productivity...for now.dont hold me for anything if suddently diz blog abruptedly cut short.not juz diz entry but d whole thing.
coz diz is impulsive entry.i was reading someone's blog..but all of a sudden i feel like why dont i write instead of reading.so a few click later ,here i am..another entry..adios....

sajak..part one..

dari sebuah kaca pampang kosong
diisi dengan ulas ulas huruf
menjadi sstu kata
dan himpunan kata menjadi sebaris ayat
lantas untaian kata dan ayat itu menjelmakan serangkap puisi
yang lahir dari satu naluri
betapa dah lama aku tak buat sajak syair dan puisi ..oantun ada la skit2,pantun merapu..
sorry..suddenly d sastera in me dissapear..and lets wait for sajak part 2...

.......................................................................(no idea for title)

sometimes,u juz dunno what to write..ur mind went blank.ur fingers stiffen,ur eyes blurred,ur intel pentium processor dual core duo juz turn into plain intel pentium(since i dunno what d earlier version before intel come with pentium).u try to squese ur brain,compressing ur cells so it can connect to produce some ideas to wirte.but it juz refuse.it juz went not responding.so u hit ctrl+alt+del.but still nothing happen..talk about proper hang.even task manager not responding to ur command.so whats next.some crack on ur head or blue death screen.u stio for a while,like u wud hit a reset button but still nothing happen.erm...u juz cant recall what was it dat u wanted to write..u know theres sumthing,but juz cant put it to words...and u went .......arghhhhhhhhhhhh

merapu bahgian satu

dan maka bermulalah suatu nukilan yang tiada tujuan selain hanya satu bentuk gaya-bebas,membiarkan amukan minda bermaharaja lela tanpa kawalan terbang bebas diruang karya tanpa budi bicara tentang isi tentang maknatentang hala tentang aturcara.hanya jemari yang berlari di kekunci sambil disuluh cahaya samar dari paparan cecair.tanpa tujuan jejari terus berlari,tanpa hala minda terus berkelana.tanpa tahu kemana pergi waras,tanpa kisah apa jadi dengan arah.pun begitu dalam kesamaran ada jua satu panduan.dalam kekalutan ada juga satu peradaban.dalam kegawatan ada juga satu kelegaan.tanpa perlu ia berlalu,tanpa mahu tapi bertemu.tanpa dekat tetap rapat.tanpa suara tetap bicara.tanpa setuju tetap bersatu.tanpa hala tetap berjumpa.tanpa pilih tetap terisih.tanpa seteru tetap beradu.namus sesekali akal mempengaruhi minda.hati didahului serakah.waras dipintas gila.kerana pasti ada saat dimana yang dirasa bukan yang dikata.yang berbicara bukan yang bersuara.yang merasa bukan yang bersama.pasti ada suatu yang begitu disudut ceruk antero semesta yang begitu luas terbentang didepan minda tak tercapai tangan mahupun minda jika tanpa semua yang ada dalam benak kepala yang bukan calang calang upaya.jika tidak kecundang ,ia bukan diundang.jika tidak binasa dia bukan biasa..jika tidak berjaya dia bukan waja.dia mahu beritahu namun kelu.dia mahu pergi namun terkunci.sebalik zahir ada terjemahnya.sebalik hati ada budi.sebalik jasa ada bicara.sebalik bela ada dakwa.sebalik hukum ada kerana.sebalik suap ada riba.sebalik pinjam ada geramsebalik masam ada gula.suka suka sahaja dia berkata kenapa hanya tinta yang dipinta.kenapa tiada berita dalam bicara.kenapa kosong dalam hitung.kenapa berlalu dalam sendu.kenapa begini bukan begitu.kerana hanya satu bukan seribu.kerana hujung tiada punca.kerana besar tiada taranya.kerana bentuk tiada acuannya.kerana tanam tiada timbusnya.kerana bicara hanya sementara.kerana rasa hanya satu perkara.bukan dia yang dicari.namuh dia juga datang lagi.bukan tidak diundang tapi pergi lintang pukang.kerana amuk dia remuk.kerana sendiri dia sepi.lantas benak dan sanubari ini jadi sepi kerna tiada lagi tawa riang orang yang girang setelah pulang dari seberang tang terang benderang walau berperang dengan dendam yang dalam yang hitam yang dipendam.pekatlikat.melekat.terpahat.sampai bertemu lagi dalam sambungan bicara ini..

you cry without tears

our actress cant even cry properly on screen..so can u blame me when i dont even switch on d tv set even when im bored to death with nothing to.i mean,she was acting a crying scene..yes,the sound was there...but how can one cry without tears(not metaphorically)..i mean come on,u r an actress..u r suppose to b able to fake ur tears at will...dats what i expect of u..maybe some will think dats too much of an expectation but crying and laughing is like a basic of human emition..so if u cant master this basic things, how u gonna perform all other more complex things.....u r suppose to master all diz..as people wud expect me to be good with ropes,knots,splice and such...as carpenter expected to know how to hammer in nails...as driver expected to know how to drive...and its ur skills of trade..but then again,d standards of our acting is ...well...dat bad i guess....i read sumwhere about an interview about diz korean dramatis who can cry at will...not only she can cry,she can dictate one eye tear stream..be it leff or right..let alone both..dat what we call master of d trade...no wonder malaysian cant get enuf of them ...pity our industry prefer pretty face than talent...some(well,most actually) good talent juz dont come in complete package...not enuf to b d lead actress...seem like u cant have it all at once....but somehow ,in korea all d good talent come in package...and so d rest of d world.....well,not dat i follow d actress-cant-cry-properly drama..it juz happen i was there in front of d set when it was aired...and its my housemate dat switch on d tv....erm...dun even get me started on indonesian drama....

isu bahasa inggeris subjek sains dan matematik

where u stand in diz issue....u gotta take a stand...u cant stand natural anymore....seperti semua orang akan cakap,ada pro dan cons dalam isu ini.sudah tentulah semua perkara ada baik dan buruk..well,almost all anyway....but to improve d level of english in our student by teaching them science n math in english is not d right way...but improve d way we teach them english......i personaly think our education system not interesting enuf for my liking....but if u r interested in learning,u wont stop when schools end...its lifelong thing,diz learning...but if u choose not to,u can stop right when u step into d class and learn nothing at all for d ages u spend schooling...its not as much about what language but how u tech d language.....and juz admit its not a god step..change back and improve....dats all..maybe it will b seen as backward step..but if u really have to,u shud step backward in order to move forward..its better than get stuck there and not moving at all...coz d longer u got stuck at one place..d deeper u sink ....so take ur stand...

continuation

after a lil over a week absent,here i am again om my blog page...preventing diz from d fate of abandonment...and trying to keep my vow not to backspace and not to delete is guite ...chalenging....how do u feel lately..me,im bored..but today,i receive 2 same call..and it spark d hope back again...its closer...almost there ..juz hold on tighter..dont letgo now....i told myself....haha...soon enuf ill get my long awaited break....diz not really a worthy entry after a long absent..but to keep d ball roll back again,i just post it anyway...

writing about write and writer and written...

how do u write ur blog...did u write about what u think at d moment,or u write about what u hv been thinking about for some time already...r u an impulse writer..?how u decide what to write and what not to..what to share with ur reader and what not to...do u write about ur feeling or about ur thinking..or about both...or none...do u write in honesty,or made up what u write...do u tell d truth or juz half...do u write when u feel like writing or juz write up coz u make it an obligation for urself to write..do u read what u write..do u want people to read what u write...do u read what others write...do u write or juz translate what u thinking into a set of symbols on d computer screen...do u like what u write..or u write what u like....

happy...happiness and trying to be happy...

diz is a good topic to talk about i think...and diz gonna b a long one also...haha..lets talk about HAPPINESS...first,lemme ask u...r u a happy person...and d answer is if u have to think before u answer..or u pause...likely u r not-so-happy person...why i said so u may ask me back....welll u r d one who answer d question with a pause..hesitate....not sure...happy person know he is happy....he dont have to think he is happy or not...he juz.......juz happy...i mean a happy person dont have to "make do with what he have" to b happy..he dont have to "think of how to make hinself happy" to b happy...a happy person juz go about with his life without even thinking about happiness or how to b happy..trying to b happy and finding way to be happy is what unhappy people do ...and having to think to d question of 'r u a happy person' simply mean u r not so happy..what is happiness..how u describe happiness...to different person,its means differently..but in general,its all d same for everyone of us....happiness is d best thing in life one can get.....whats dat u asking...?am i happy..am i happy...?well...i erm...i....kinda...well...